July 2007 Update - If you read my Memorium, you will find that Joanna is now a widow.  
We talk about life taking twists and turns, this was a biggie.  But I have learned that there
is life ahead.  Through Joanna and the support of my wife, I am have never been more
confident and at peace.  While a trying year, it has been a rich year as I head towards a
second life, and a second adolescence, while remembering the first.  

Special thanks to Vicki, Jenn, Natasha, Kimm, Claudia, Clare and Stephany for making this
a year of growth and being so supportive with my personal challenges.  Remember that
we are all on a journey, it is never ending and never static.  xoxoxoxo, Joanna.  

I knew back in my teens that I had a feminine side
but did not know how to express it.   I loved
pantyhose and nylons but had thought
cross-dressing would mean that I was gay.  Most
importantly, I was not comfortable with myself or
had the confidence to confront it.

I met a wonderful woman who openly accepted
this and was willing to help my on my journey but I
wasn't ready.  She also educated me about the
Gay and Lesbian community.  Due to some tragic
circumstances, my wife has become permanently
disabled and I am now her primary care-provider.  
With two pre-teen girls and a continued
downsizing at my company, the stress, anger and
frustration continued to grow.

In May 2001, I began to come to terms with my
feminine side.  I started to buy some clothes,
dress-up at night, even go to a hotel for a "night
of photos."  No one knew this.  I started to realize
that cross-dressing was not a sexual-thing with me
but a release of my fem-side.  I enjoyed the
illusion, loved the dress up, and the fancy.

In May 2002, Joanna emerged.  While web-surfing, I was looking for a place to help me with my
transformation and make-up.  Whether by chance or fate, I found Clare McAfee and TG North
(see my special link). We had several conversations on the telephone before I took that first
step and a trip to VT.  In a 1-day trip, we had a photo shoot, quick trp to a mall and dinner.  I
dressed as a passable girl, went out in public and dinner WOW!

No only did I find an inner-peace but it helped me reevaluate many things in my life. I was
calmer and happier than I had been in several years. Best yet, it was an avenue to reconnect
with my wife, and who now, is an integral part of Joanna's transformation.

I have made many trips to TG North and have met many other "galz" like myself.  It is so
wonderful to be able to talk about my feminine side, share experiences with other galz and
eliminate the guilt I have been burying for decades.

I have created this web-site as a form of self-expression.  I hope that if you are at that
crossroad or indecision, you should realize that you are not alone.  Crossdressing is not an
illness or perverted behavior, we are not pedophiles or deviates but just "normal" people
expressing themselves, and who do not want to hurt anyone else in our quest for of
self-expression. Everyone's journey will be different.  Open your mind and heart and ENJOY!